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I found this story on Str8UpGayPorn<\/a>, porn star Ryan Rose<\/a> wrote a very revealing entry on his Tumblr “BITCHES BE LIKE\u2026 FUCK RYAN ROSE! ????<\/a>” in response the criticism from Jaxton Wheeler<\/a>.<\/p>\n Here\u2019s where shit gets a little tricky. Shortly after signing with FalconStudios.com I totally fucked up. Actually fucked up is a huge understatement. I let alcohol, drugs, and my emotions get the best of me and I physically assaulted my boyfriend at the time @BobbyHartXXX leading to my arrest. Needless to say that was the last time I ever saw bobby.<\/em> Upon my release from jail I went through a deep depression almost committing suicide<\/strong>. If it hadn\u2019t been for my best friends @CoolTomPix, @FabScoutHoward, @GioCaruso, and believe it or not @FabScoutMatt I would have went straight to my San Diego apartment and drank drano till either I was about to pass out or till I couldn\u2019t take the pain anymore when then I would have taken my 357 magnum snub nose and painted my walls with my brain. I\u2019m not looking for pity or attention from this part the reason this is a little graphic is because this is what I had visioned in my head and what I was going to carry out. Reluctantly I didn\u2019t go through with it.<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n This is the first time Ryan Rose writes about what happened at The Phoenix Forum<\/a> last year.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n I tucked my tail between my legs, picked up what was left of my broken heart, I couldn\u2019t even find my pride or self esteem as I packed all I could in my truck and went back to Florida where my support (family) was waiting for me. I hid from the world for a few weeks and awaited for what I thought was going to be calls not only from attorneys and detectives but career ending calls from FabScout.com as well as<\/em> FalconStudios.com<\/a>. Saying the least all the legal stuff worked out and the career ending calls turned out to be calls of disappointment but still support provided I sought out help and promised to learn from my horrible mistakes never to repeat them ever. Shocked, I vowed I would never let myself raise my fists in rage, nor let down those who supported me probably when they wouldn\u2019t have. <\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n This might be off topic, but Ryan mentioned me in his writing. What he wrote is true.<\/p>\n You may think I\u2019m full of shit and a total ego maniac but all the people who know me will willingly go to bat and fight that fight for me because that\u2019s just not who I am. Ask @Str8UpGayPorn I be the first to sit with you an enjoy some 2 dollar nasty strippers or ask @QueerMeNow I will take you on a crazy night in SF getting you completely shit faced with fellow family exclusive porn stars but get you a limo home making sure your safe as my dumbass walks home searching for shoes.<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n Ryan talked about what happened on Friday, September 19th. I was at the filming of Tim And Roma Live<\/a> in San Francisco. After the show Ryan Rose, Johnny V and Joey D let me tag along with them<\/a>. Ryan ordered Fireball every bars we went. Everyone got drunk. And somehow Ryan threw Johnny’s shoe into the back of a running truck. And yes, Ryan got me and Johnny a limo back to the hotel but he refused to get in the limo.<\/p>\n